On top of frustration with the paperwork and financial situation in Martinique, school has been frustrating up until the last week or so. Two months in I will have finally met all of the classes I will be working with. This has been incredibly frustrating because I've only been able to cover at most two subjects in my classes. The first being class introductions where the students get to meet me and I get to meet them. Everyone answers five simple questions and the students get an image of me as I get a small glimpse of who they are. This is often fun and it's nice to have every student talk and give them some confidence that they can speak English. Unfortunately this gets old after the first month of doing introductions. The second month of introductions really drags on. Fortunately, with a couple of classes I've been able to talk about High School life in the United States. Unfortunately that's been only in two or three of my eighteen classes. Again, thankfully, I've been able to talk about Thanksgiving this week with a couple more of my classes which has allowed me to do lesson work now with roughly one third of my classes. The other two thirds I haven't seen but more than once since I arrived. Further, I am disappointed with the level of students speaking ability and the reluctance of many students to try speaking. Every class has a handful of good students and a couple of classes everyone is good speakers and is willing to speak. Unfortunately many students are teenagers (I forgot what it was like to be 16, 17, 18) and school is not there favorite subject. Thus, they could learn more if they tried harder but that's always the case with this age group no matter where you are in the world. By and large though, the kids are good and most, when called upon, do try. There are a couple of students that could be better if they wanted to be and there a couple of classes as a whole could be better if they tried harder.
Transportation stinks here to if you don't have a car. I won't say more because I'm making myself frustrated by talking about my frustrations.
I have come to know patience very well since being Martinique. I can attribute that to coping with the frustrations that I have mentioned above. In the end, everything works out and so I've become patient reminding myself that the frustration is only temporary. The lack of work and lesson planning has afforded me the time to read and watch a lot of soccer which I have been thankful for. It's been a drastic change from life in Seattle where I was living in the heart of a major American city where I had everything at my fingertips. The slowness of life in Martinique has been a welcome change and has aided my furthering understanding of patience. In Seattle as well as the rest of the country it is easy to get what you want when you want it. Groceries are open 24 hours, most shops and restaurants are open 7 days a week. That's not the case on an island and especially not the case on a French island. Ironically enough, I have to plan further in advance to get the things that I need to get done in Martinique because I can only accomplish a couple of tasks each day. Because I am traveling most places by foot or unreliable buses there is a limited amount of time in which I can do things. It's a nice change from American life where I was scrambling to cram as many things as I could in a single day. Every minute hear seems to be an exercise in patience. I think that is healthy for the mind especially coming from an American generation that was one of the first to know instant gratification throughout our lives. I hope that I will be able a more humble and patient person when I come back to the states. Frustration has not been fun but patience has become rewarding and calming. Although I could do without the frustrations, I am glad they are there so that I can continue to learn patience.